||[Mar. 10th, 2005|01:51 am]
|||||Ned Kelly on TV (2003 version)||]|
Well, I'm 26 years old today.
I'm really not sure how to feel about this. On one hand, it makes me feel very old. After all, I'm on the downhill slope on the way to 30 now, still single, not dating anyone at the moment, living in a town where I still don't know hardly anyone outside of work, and my only friend to hang out with on my off time is my kitty Eowyn. My mom was 21 when she married and 25 when she had me, so now I'm really starting to feel like I'm lagging behind (behind what, I'm not exactly sure, but I distinctly feel like I'm starting to run out of time).
On the other hand, I like the number 26. It's a good age in that when I tell people how old I am, I can still feel young and semi-cute. Also, I'm in a really good position in life right now. I have a full time job that pays well, an awesome apartment, a loving family, and an adorable kitty that sleeps with me every night. I'm very grateful that I have the luxury to be able to buy myself clothes, DVD's, games, etc. and have the time to enjoy them. And I love my independence. I can do what I want, when I want, so long as I show up to work. Honestly, I'm not sure that I'm ready to give up that independence for a relationship yet. My mom is wonderful in the reassurance department when it comes to this subject...she always tells me not to rush things, to take my time and I'll know when I'm ready and when I meet the right person, and she always makes me feel so much better. So yeah, I'm reasonably happy with where I'm at now.
What I really miss is friendship. Eowyn is a sweetheart, but I miss the little things, like staying up late talking or watching tv, going to movies, or playing video games with my best friend. I've talked to people my age at work, but none of them share my tastes in entertainment/music/lifestyle (they all want to go to clubs and dancing, and that's just not me). Maybe I should try going to libraries and bookstores, or the independent movie theater, where I'm more likely to find people I can relate to. Anyone reading this have any suggestions as to where intelligent fandom-inclined people might tend to hang out?
Anyway, I'm going to Indianapolis this weekend to spend time with my aforementioned best friend, so I won't be online as much. I'm so psyched about this trip! I only get to see her about every 6 weeks, so spending time just relaxing and hanging out with her is just about the best birthday present I could get. :)