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[Mar. 10th, 2005|01:51 am]
Lady Korana
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Well, I'm 26 years old today.

I'm really not sure how to feel about this. On one hand, it makes me feel very old. After all, I'm on the downhill slope on the way to 30 now, still single, not dating anyone at the moment, living in a town where I still don't know hardly anyone outside of work, and my only friend to hang out with on my off time is my kitty Eowyn. My mom was 21 when she married and 25 when she had me, so now I'm really starting to feel like I'm lagging behind (behind what, I'm not exactly sure, but I distinctly feel like I'm starting to run out of time).

On the other hand, I like the number 26. It's a good age in that when I tell people how old I am, I can still feel young and semi-cute. Also, I'm in a really good position in life right now. I have a full time job that pays well, an awesome apartment, a loving family, and an adorable kitty that sleeps with me every night. I'm very grateful that I have the luxury to be able to buy myself clothes, DVD's, games, etc. and have the time to enjoy them. And I love my independence. I can do what I want, when I want, so long as I show up to work. Honestly, I'm not sure that I'm ready to give up that independence for a relationship yet. My mom is wonderful in the reassurance department when it comes to this subject...she always tells me not to rush things, to take my time and I'll know when I'm ready and when I meet the right person, and she always makes me feel so much better. So yeah, I'm reasonably happy with where I'm at now.

What I really miss is friendship. Eowyn is a sweetheart, but I miss the little things, like staying up late talking or watching tv, going to movies, or playing video games with my best friend. I've talked to people my age at work, but none of them share my tastes in entertainment/music/lifestyle (they all want to go to clubs and dancing, and that's just not me). Maybe I should try going to libraries and bookstores, or the independent movie theater, where I'm more likely to find people I can relate to. Anyone reading this have any suggestions as to where intelligent fandom-inclined people might tend to hang out?

Anyway, I'm going to Indianapolis this weekend to spend time with my aforementioned best friend, so I won't be online as much. I'm so psyched about this trip! I only get to see her about every 6 weeks, so spending time just relaxing and hanging out with her is just about the best birthday present I could get. :)
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[User Picture]From: tenebris
2005-03-09 11:04 pm (UTC)
Happy Birthday, chica! *HUGS*

You're wonderfully cute, you know, and at 26 are not old at all. Really. :) As for finding more people to hang out with, you may want to browse around LJ, see if there's any communities on LJ for the Fort Wayne crowd. Or check your local bookstores to see when any gaming or discussion groups meet. And there's the Film board you hang out at, too; any online place can open a treasure trove of people, neh? (Methinks...)
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[User Picture]From: vatergrrl
2005-03-10 04:32 am (UTC)
Happy, happy birthday, ladykorana! And, yeah, I have to agree with tenebris. 26 is NOT old. I know it can feel old, especially when you see someone else's timeline and say, "Gee, Mom/Dad/best friend/worst enemy did X by the time they were 25, and now I'm a year past that, so what's wrong with this picture?" I went through a couple of years like that -- it seemed that everywhere I turned, friends were either starting long-term relationships, getting married (gasp!) or (double-gasp!) having first children. The children thing was what really got me, somehow -- weren't we all *way* too young to be doing that?

And again, tenebris is right on about the lj groups for meeting people. You can also try "Meetup.com" and browse around for reading groups, book clubs, fandom stuff and independent movie watchers. There might even be an indie film society in FW, or something put on through the uni? In Buffalo, there's a very popular film series sponsored by an English prof, where you watch the movie first, then sit around after and discuss.

Sending virtual confetti, glitter and big colorful balloons your way. Take a deep breath and blow out all the candles! (And no one will mind if it takes *two* breaths to blow out ALL those little flames!)

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--VG
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From: (Anonymous)
2005-03-10 05:31 am (UTC)
Happy Birthday Jen!!! Don't worry, I'm starting to feel old too...being that I'm gonna be 24 in less than a month. I always thought that I'd be the first one to be married and have kids, and I'm nowhere near that point right now. Heck, I can't even say that my life is going very well, since I still live at home with mom and dad. Well, I hope you enjoy your time in Indy, and once again...HAPPY B-DAY!

Your bro, Jeffy
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[User Picture]From: rainbowbluebird
2005-03-12 08:02 am (UTC)
Happy Birthday Darling; I wish you all the best!

I can completely relate to your feelings of being being in a town and barely knowing anyone outside of work...its a frustrating experience at the best of times-

lj has been my solace in many ways...

Have a wonderful weekend and coming year-

Much love!

BVB
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