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[Apr. 26th, 2004|01:08 am]
Lady Korana
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*sigh*

Why do I *always* do this to myself? I'm sitting here at 1:00 am, staring at my computer screen and anticipating yet another all-nighter as I struggle to throw together Powerpoint slides at the last minute. I always manage to barely finish before I hit the showers and head off to work. Then, when I present, I'm always tired and I haven't really rehearsed all that much...

At least this time the presentation today is a rehearsal, a practice for the real thing which is at a conference on Thursday. I'm almost more nervous about this rehearsal than the actual presentation, however, since the practice run is in front of my bosses and coworkers. If I suck, they'll remember it and think less of me. If I suck in front of strangers, it matters less to me, I suppose.

But why, oh why does this happen every single time? I had all week, kept pushing it back again and again...and now I'm stressed beyond belief and I had to work this weekend, as well as throw together the presentation. I knew this was coming...I could have done it a little at a time like a good girl. But nooooo, I was stupid and decided to play first, work later.

To top it all off, I think I'm coming down with something. My throat's been scratchy since Thursday night, and I partially lost my voice on Friday. I still have the lower tones but the higher ranges of my voice keep fading in and out. To make it worse, I started coughing yesterday, and sneezing more today. At least my throat isn't all that sore, unless I sneeze too hard, but it should be a barrel of fun trying to speak long enough for my presentation! Well, back to work...
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[User Picture]From: tarotgal
2004-04-26 12:17 am (UTC)
Oohhhh feel better! *sends lots of warm healing vibes* I refuse to give a presentation without a water bottle handy... too many bad experiences of speaking while sick.
And I ALWAYS feel more comfortable talking to complete strangers rather than friends/co-workers/peers for that same reason. And I always feel more comfortable talking to people who don't know anything about the specific subject I'm speaking about, so they can't tell if I leave something out or make a small mistake. Yeah. You'd never know by this that I've been through two public speaking classes, would you? heehee During one class I had to get my talk rescheduled because I completely lost my voice. I was rescheduled on the last day for that series, and had most of my voice back but... yeah... water.
And I always pull slides together the day/night before... hey, at least then it's somewhat fresh in your memory still, right?

Point is, I totally understand how you feel. I really hope it goes well and that you feel better soon, though!!! {{{{{{{{{{Lady Korana}}}}}}}}}}
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[User Picture]From: ladykorana
2004-04-26 01:31 am (UTC)
Thanks so much for your hugs and comforting thoughts! I don't feel bad very often, so when I do, it's nice to have people offering sympathy and support. (Gives me nice plot bunnies of symptoms to inflict on Legolas, as well *G*)

Good news, my slides are done, at least for tonight, and it's only 3:30! I don't intend on running through them out loud beforehand though. I just don't have the energy for that. That leaves me a good 2 and a half hours I could sleep...or would if I wasn't going to print out a copy of my slides and jot notes on them of things to remember to say. So after I do that, I might get 2 hours, which is more than I could have hoped for! Now all I have to do is manage to get myself out of bed on time *G*

Thanks so much for your kind comments!
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[User Picture]From: tenebris
2004-04-26 12:26 am (UTC)
*****HUGS*****

We do the same thing, my dear, and always pay the same damn price...and do it again and again. *sigh*

Do you have tea and honey for your throat? Or any cough lollies? Things like that? The EZ Cold whats-its are supposed to be very good, and of course, the Ricola. (But you know that. DUH.)

*****HUGS AGAIN******
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[User Picture]From: ladykorana
2004-04-26 01:36 am (UTC)
Hi there. Nice icon, chica! Pip and Gandalf are cute together, and that's one hell of an amazing backdrop they're standing in front of.

Tea sounds good, but not right now...not if I want to sleep. Takes too long to make and drink, since I like mine really really hot and sip at it as it gradually cools. 'Twas a good idea, nonetheless; I've had about 5 cups of tea in the last 2 days!

I might have some halls cough drops here, but even if I do, they're about 7 years old now. I'm so low on everything essential right now. I just need some time free of projects so I can go shopping for clothes, groceries, toiletries, DVD's/GameCube games, a new apartment, etc. Right now though, when I get home, my motivation to leave it again is hovering around zero.

Well, I'm off to bed soon, after I jot some notes down on my printed slides. Thanks for the message, and thanks for letting me chat with you on the phone earlier to relieve stress. Best of luck for your conference on Thursday!
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